This Too Shall Pass

I'm kind of down today.

My husband is in the hospital, my neighbor's cat had to be put to sleep (R.I.P. sweet Cody) and my head and tummy hurt.  But I still have so much to be grateful for and I won't forget that.

I have my health.  The recent weight loss has made me feel so much better.  Just think- 80 pounds gone, Cheryl.  That's amazing! I'm struggling with my eating a bit right now and what do I usually do in times of stress?  Eat.  So I am trying to focus on other things instead of eating to comfort myself.  I'm going to pray, laugh, pet my cat, go outside and enjoy the beauty of nature.

I have my loved ones.  Thank God for my family and friends- they are a strong support system and a source of inspiration to me. They are the coolest bunch of people and they love me unconditionally.  I know I don't connect all the time and I can be a bit of a hermit, but that's not always a bad thing.  I re-charge when I have alone time but I am working on being more comfortable around others.  Thank you guys for being patient.

I have a loving and powerful God.  I believe that He will get Sam through this difficult time.

I have things that make me happy.  The ocean, walking in the woods, reading a great book, laughing, my "babies" Peanut and Pushkin,  hot tea,  and on and on...

I have so much to be grateful for and I will not forget that, even in the midst of trying times.

The Blue Area

I was going to call this blog "The Gray Area" but I thought the name was a bit too... drab.  The reason behind the name is because so much of my life has been black or white, right or wrong, good or bad, all or nothing.  I have either had to be perfect or a total failure.  To me, this blog will be about discovering that I can have hiccups along the way down the path of life but that doesn't mean I have to stop.  I met with a wise man today and we talked about learning to love and to not be so damn hard on ourselves.  We try, and oftentimes we succeed at what we set out to do.  But when we do not see success the world is not over.  There will always be another time to try, another day to come.  It reminds me of a quote I recently saw and absolutely adore: